BLESSED! - Blog written by Steph
The weekend is here and we go home soon. I am overcome with so many emotions as I reflect on this journey and anticipate our return home. I’m finding myself a bit anxious about leaving Houston and returning to reality. God provided the ultimate environment for Tom and I to walk hand in hand through this journey together. I am looking forward though to the next few months of continuing to care for him at home.
This has been surprisingly easy on me. All I have had to do is accompany Tom for treatment / appointments and take care of him. No other responsibilities. Who can leave their home and family and not have a single concern? Only those of us whom God has blessed with wonderful friends and family. While my emotional side missed the kids, family, friends, (Honey) and life events, I never had to think about anything but Tom. I hated seeing him suffer, but my complete faith in his healing, gave me such a peace.
This journey has opened my eyes to see what is truly important in life. First and foremost, our relationship with our Lord and Savior! The love, peace, strength, and confidence He gives us is ALL we need for anything we endure. To God be the Glory that we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength. We have the promise of eternity, so we have nothing to fear of this world. Our biggest concern should be – who doesn’t know the Lord and how can our lives lead them to their Savior! This is our purpose and our goal as we finish the race God has placed before us.
The second thing that I have learned that is truly important in life is the love of our family and friends. God has blessed us abundantly with such amazing people in our lives. My heart is overflowing with love and gratitude for how blessed we are to have so much love in our lives. We lack for nothing. My only prayer is that I can return this incredible love to others as they have loved us. My ultimate desire as we return to our normal lives is to show everyone how much I dearly love them and what they mean to me.
LIVE, LOVE, and LAUGH! The third important thing that I want to intentionally focus on is to live life to its fullest. Unfortunately, with my extreme OCD, I spend so much time on details, that I miss out on life. This experience has shown me how important life is and how we need to live each moment in the present. This truly will be something that I will have to work on. Relaxing does not come naturally to me. My desire is to make more time for my husband, my children, my sisters, my mom, my family and my friends, and enjoy every moment. I want to look back on my life and say that I spent every minute loving and enjoying the people God placed in my life. My relationship with Tom will be at the top of my list! After 33 years of marriage and 4 children, we have traveled many roads, mountains, and valleys. He is the most important thing to me, and I want to spend the rest of my life showing him how much I love him. This, also, will require intentionally putting aside time for him. Ultimately, I will be blessed by every moment with him. After being alone during this time, my romantic heart wants to move to a secluded home on the ocean and never return, but reality is I would miss everyone. We are so very blessed with a love that is FOREVER! Then, with Tom at my side, I want to spend every available minute with family and friends, savoring each and every moment! No regrets.
I would have to say that the most impactful part of this experience has been meeting our precious friend, Lane. He captured a piece of our heart the very minute we saw him. We will always love him. He is a 9-year-old boy who has been fighting his cancer for 3 years. He has an old soul that loves John Wayne movies, horses, rodeos, and hunting. The first day that we met him, we left the hospital thinking – “how can we complain or be weak when that little boy can fight so hard”. We were blessed to see him every day at radiation. He was a true nugget of God’s love for us. I brought him a little surprise each day just to experience the joy of seeing a smile on his face. Tom’s last day of radiation was Thursday, but we made a trip to the hospital on Friday to celebrate Lanes last day. He will still have to finish out his chemotherapy treatments, but he is done with the brutal radiation. I found myself crying that morning at the thought of saying goodbye to him. Then, I fell apart when he arrived in a hospital bed. He had been admitted to the hospital the day before with low blood counts and a fever. He was receiving blood, on oxygen, getting many antibiotics and needing morphine. He looked so little and so fragile. It broke my heart to see him that way. We had our little gift and a balloon for him, but I would have sold everything I have if I could have made him smile at that moment. When his radiation was over, they wheeled his hospital bed over to the celebration bell. When they asked him if he wanted to ring the bell, with his eyes closed, he said, “I want Mr. Tom to do it for me.” How can a heart explode anymore with love? This will do it. I cried all day. My heart is breaking to leave here and not be a part of his life. His mother promised that we would keep in touch. I invited them to come see us in Oklahoma and told her we would love to have Lane any time. When we return for our follow up appointments, I look forward to seeing his precious face again. Please, please pray for a complete healing of Lane so that he can live an amazing life.
What is important in my life?
I am going to spend every moment, of every day, living my life to the fullest and focusing on these important relationships. My prayer is that I show my love for others.
In Christ’s Love,
YOU ARE PART OF A MIRACLE
Hello family and friends in Christ,
Many have asked what the next steps are after I finish treatment on Thursday, April 20, 2017.
This is what I know so far, they will have completed the maximum number of radiation (33) and chemo (6) treatments they can safely apply in order to a eradicate my cancer.
So now, please join me in giving God all praise and glory for his miracle of healing. Truly, please get on your knees with me and give Him thanks. In my mind and in my heart, it is finished. Our God is an awesome God.
I came here to be part of a miracle and I believe that I was. I also believed the entire time, that every single prayer warrior on this journey with me, was part of my miracle as well.
That being said, MD Anderson is not done.
The first two weeks following treatment, I will spend my time managing through post-treatment side-affects, as they occur.
In early May, I will return home to finish my recovery. We originally intended to stay in Houston for the month of May, but in order to save a month of rent and also to hurry up and get home to see our kiddos, we have elected to recover at home. This is a very tricky time. I need to avoid anybody or anything that could expose me to sickness or infections that my immune system isn't prepared to battle. I need to focus on rebuilding my immune system to fight for me. They indicated that I need to be on the guard for 2-4 weeks. Basically, they want me to stay on high alert through the end of May. I don't know what that looks like today, but I will share more as I learn about it.
In late June, MD Anderson would like us to return for a final assessment wrap up. Whenever this is scheduled, it will take 2-3 days.
Two weeks after the final assessment, they will coordinate with us for a final consultation meeting with the care team. We project that to be mid-July.
Normally, waiting would be a cause for anxiety or fear, but in this case, we all need to remember that we are part of a miracle and we get to finish where we started ... on our knees giving God the glory. I pray that each of you will turn to God and keep your eyes on Him and not on the things of this world.
Remember, Peter walked on water and walked towards Jesus, until he turned His eyes on the storm and then sank. Jesus in his compassion saved Peter even though he doubted.
To turn your eyes on anxiety or fear now is the same as turning your eyes towards the storm - you do not want to do that as it may just reveal that you have been praying and hedging your faith with an element of doubt. There is no need to do that as you are already part of the miracle. We are walking on water with Jesus.
I am thankful for each of you and for continuing to walk this journey with me. You are so faithful. You are Prayer Warriors!
I am especially thankful for my wife and all she does for me and is doing for me. I could not have done this without her by my side in every way. The doctors praised her each time they saw how well the battle was going. They were surprised each and every week. They shouldn't have been - have you met my wife, Stephanie? She is amazing!
Of course I am most thankful for Jesus and how he owns my heart. He is everything and He is the only thing any of us needs. As I mentioned previously, it is all up to you to invite Him into your heart, like I did. If you haven't, now is the time. Don't wait.
I love each and every one of you and give great thanks for all that you have done to share Christ and to support our family to date on this journey. Now let's continue to be walk on water kind of believers!
WHAT IS THE ONLY THING YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF?
Merriam-Webster defines “control” as having the power to influence or direct people’s behavior. Over the years, I have been fortunate to coach, teach, manage, and lead others to success, but never once did I think I was in control, but I knew who was.
I remember coaching a U16 all girl soccer team and somehow thinking I was in control of the practices – after all, I was the coach. Not! I held a player meeting and simply asked them, “What do I need to do to get you to practice hard and not goof off?” One of the girls spoke up and simply said, we need time to talk to each other. Being a dumb male coach, I said, “What do you mean?” Once they explained it in terms I could understand, I changed the practice to accommodate them.
Our practices went like this:
6:05 Talk time
6:10 Warm up
6:25 Talk time
6:45 Talk time
7:05 Talk time
7:25 Talk time
7:30 Coaches update
To get the best out of my players, I needed to learn from them and give up control. I needed them to tell me how to help them be successful.
Have you ever considered the possibility that “control” is simply an illusion and does not exist? Maybe, we are looking in the wrong place? Take a moment and scroll down to read ALL the scriptures posted below. They will declare who is in control in every aspect of life. Let them speak to you about who He is and how He is with you all the days of your life.
“What is the only thing you are in control of?”
What you believe! You and only you, get to make that decision. It is the only decision that has eternal significance and it is up to you. What do you believe?
I have met and interacted with people from all walks of life while on this journey and like most communities, faith or a lack thereof can be categorized into three bullets:
Romans 10:9-10, 13 remind us, “That if you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified (declared not guilty), and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved (promised eternal life).” “… for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”
If you are reading this blog, I am praying for you. I am praying for your faith to increase, or I am praying for you to accept Jesus into your heart or I am praying for your relationship to be restored. I love ya and Jesus loves you more!
GOD IS IN CONTROL
Proverbs 19:21 ESV - Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.
Romans 8:28 ESV - And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Jeremiah 29:11 ESV - For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Joshua 1:9 ESV - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Isaiah 45:6-7 ESV - That people may know, from the rising of the sun and from the west, that there is none besides me; I am the Lord, and there is no other. I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things.
Isaiah 41:10 ESV - Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Matthew 19:26 ESV - But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Isaiah 55:8-11 ESV - For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; it shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.
Matthew 6:34 ESV - “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Proverbs 16:9 ESV - The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
Proverbs 16:4 ESV - The Lord has made everything for its purpose, even the wicked for the day of trouble.
Job 12:10 ESV - In his hand is the life of every living thing and the breath of all mankind.
Psalm 22:28 ESV - For kingship belongs to the Lord, and he rules over the nations.
Psalm 115:3 ESV - Our God is in the heavens; he does all that he pleases.
Ephesians 1:11 ESV - In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will,
Isaiah 45:7 ESV - I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things.
1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV - No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
Isaiah 14:24 ESV - The Lord of hosts has sworn: “As I have planned, so shall it be, and as I have purposed, so shall it stand,
Hebrews 2:8 ESV - Putting everything in subjection under his feet.” Now in putting everything in subjection to him, he left nothing outside his control. At present, we do not yet see everything in subjection to him.
1 Chronicles 29:11 ESV - Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, for all that is in the heavens and in the earth is yours. Yours is the kingdom, O Lord, and you are exalted as head above all.
Exodus 9:16 ESV - But for this purpose I have raised you up, to show you my power, so that my name may be proclaimed in all the earth.
Daniel 4:35 ESV - All the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, and he does according to his will among the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth; and none can stay his hand or say to him, “What have you done?”
2 Timothy 1:7 ESV - For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.
Jeremiah 32:27 ESV - “Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for me?
John 16:33 ESV - I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
Romans 9:21 ESV - Has the potter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for dishonorable use?
Proverbs 21:1 ESV - The king's heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord; he turns it wherever he will.
Matthew 10:29 ESV - Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father.
Philippians 4:13 ESV - I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Jeremiah 10:6-10 ESV - There is none like you, O Lord; you are great, and your name is great in might. Who would not fear you, O King of the nations? For this is your due; for among all the wise ones of the nations and in all their kingdoms there is none like you. They are both stupid and foolish; the instruction of idols is but wood! Beaten silver is brought from Tarshish, and gold from Uphaz. They are the work of the craftsman and of the hands of the goldsmith; their clothing is violet and purple; they are all the work of skilled men. But the Lord is the true God; he is the living God and the everlasting King. At his wrath the earth quakes, and the nations cannot endure his indignation.
Genesis 50:20 ESV - As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.
Revelation 1:8 ESV - “I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”
Revelation 4:11 ESV - “Worthy are you, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they existed and were created.”
Psalm 24:1 ESV - A Psalm of David. The earth is the Lord's and the fullness thereof, the world and those who dwell therein,
Psalm 99:1-9 ESV - The Lord reigns; let the peoples tremble! He sits enthroned upon the cherubim; let the earth quake! The Lord is great in Zion; he is exalted over all the peoples. Let them praise your great and awesome name! Holy is he! The King in his might loves justice. You have established equity; you have executed justice and righteousness in Jacob. Exalt the Lord our God; worship at his footstool! Holy is he! ...
Psalm 37:23 ESV - The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way;
1 Chronicles 29:11-12 ESV - Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, for all that is in the heavens and in the earth is yours. Yours is the kingdom, O Lord, and you are exalted as head above all. Both riches and honor come from you, and you rule over all. In your hand are power and might, and in your hand it is to make great and to give strength to all.
Psalm 46:10 ESV - “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
Psalm 9:10 ESV - And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.
Hebrews 1:3 ESV - He is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high,
James 1:13 ESV - Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one.
Romans 8:31 ESV - What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?
Isaiah 14:27 ESV - For the Lord of hosts has purposed, and who will annul it? His hand is stretched out, and who will turn it back?
Revelation 1:17-18 ESV - When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. But he laid his right hand on me, saying, “Fear not, I am the first and the last, and the living one. I died, and behold I am alive forevermore, and I have the keys of Death and Hades.
1 Corinthians 14:33 ESV - For God is not a God of confusion but of peace. As in all the churches of the saints,
John 14:6 ESV - Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Proverbs 29:26 ESV - Many seek the face of a ruler, but it is from the Lord that a man gets justice.
2 Chronicles 20:5-12 ESV - And Jehoshaphat stood in the assembly of Judah and Jerusalem, in the house of the Lord, before the new court, and said, “O Lord, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven? You rule over all the kingdoms of the nations. In your hand are power and might, so that none is able to withstand you. Did you not, our God, drive out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel, and give it forever to the descendants of Abraham your friend? And they have lived in it and have built for you in it a sanctuary for your name, saying, ‘If disaster comes upon us, the sword, judgment, or pestilence, or famine, we will stand before this house and before you—for your name is in this house—and cry out to you in our affliction, and you will hear and save.’ ...
Psalm 27:1 ESV / Of David. The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
1 Peter 5:7 ESV / Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
Acts 2:23 ESV / This Jesus, delivered up according to the definite plan and foreknowledge of God, you crucified and killed by the hands of lawless men.
Acts 17:26 ESV / And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place,
Isaiah 55:8 ESV / For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
Genesis 1:1 ESV / In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.
Psalm 23:1-6 ESV / A Psalm of David. The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. ...
1 John 1:5 ESV / This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.
1 John 2:5 ESV / But whoever keeps his word, in him truly the love of God is perfected. By this we may know that we are in him:
Philippians 4:6-7 ESV / Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
1 Samuel 2:6-7 ESV / The Lord kills and brings to life; he brings down to Sheol and raises up. The Lord makes poor and makes rich; he brings low and he exalts.
Deuteronomy 33:26-29 ESV / “There is none like God, O Jeshurun, who rides through the heavens to your help, through the skies in his majesty. The eternal God is your dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms. And he thrust out the enemy before you and said, Destroy. So Israel lived in safety, Jacob lived alone, in a land of grain and wine, whose heavens drop down dew. Happy are you, O Israel! Who is like you, a people saved by the Lord, the shield of your help, and the sword of your triumph! Your enemies shall come fawning to you, and you shall tread upon their backs.”
Psalm 34:7 ESV / The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them.
2 Chronicles 20:15 ESV / And he said, “Listen, all Judah and inhabitants of Jerusalem and King Jehoshaphat: Thus says the Lord to you, ‘Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed at this great horde, for the battle is not yours but God's.
Exodus 14:13 ESV / And Moses said to the people, “Fear not, stand firm, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will work for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall never see again.
John 14:27 ESV / Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Genesis 1:2 ESV / The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.
John 3:1-36 ESV / Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews. This man came to Jesus by night and said to him, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher come from God, for no one can do these signs that you do unless God is with him.” Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.” Nicodemus said to him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother's womb and be born?” Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. ...
1 John 4:18 ESV / There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
Revelation 21:22-24 ESV / And I saw no temple in the city, for its temple is the Lord God the Almighty and the Lamb. And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb. By its light will the nations walk, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it,
John 13:7 ESV / Jesus answered him, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.”
1 Timothy 6:15 ESV / Which he will display at the proper time—he who is the blessed and only Sovereign, the King of kings and Lord of lords,
Psalm 135:6 ESV / Whatever the Lord pleases, he does, in heaven and on earth, in the seas and all deeps.
Joshua 24:15 ESV / And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”
Revelation 1:17 ESV / When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. But he laid his right hand on me, saying, “Fear not, I am the first and the last,
John 17:17 ESV / Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth.
John 3:16-17 ESV / “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.
Psalm 46:1 ESV / To the choirmaster. Of the Sons of Korah. According to Alamoth. A Song. God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Psalm 34:19 ESV / Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
Ephesians 1:11-12 ESV / In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will, so that we who were the first to hope in Christ might be to the praise of his glory.
Psalm 94:19 ESV / When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.
Revelation 1:1-20 ESV / The revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave him to show to his servants the things that must soon take place. He made it known by sending his angel to his servant John, who bore witness to the word of God and to the testimony of Jesus Christ, even to all that he saw. Blessed is the one who reads aloud the words of this prophecy, and blessed are those who hear, and who keep what is written in it, for the time is near. John to the seven churches that are in Asia: Grace to you and peace from him who is and who was and who is to come, and from the seven spirits who are before his throne, and from Jesus Christ the faithful witness, the firstborn of the dead, and the ruler of kings on earth. To him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood ...
Luke 21:8 ESV / And he said, “See that you are not led astray. For many will come in my name, saying, ‘I am he!’ and, ‘The time is at hand!’ Do not go after them.
Psalm 23:4 ESV / Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Psalm 3:1-8 ESV / A Psalm of David, when he fled from Absalom his son. O Lord, how many are my foes! Many are rising against me; many are saying of my soul, there is no salvation for him in God. Selah But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head. I cried aloud to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy hill. Selah I lay down and slept; I woke again, for the Lord sustained me. ...
2 Peter 3:2 ESV / That you should remember the predictions of the holy prophets and the commandment of the Lord and Savior through your apostles,
Hebrews 11:1-40 ESV / Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible. By faith Abel offered to God a more acceptable sacrifice than Cain, through which he was commended as righteous, God commending him by accepting his gifts. And through his faith, though he died, he still speaks. By faith Enoch was taken up so that he should not see death, and he was not found, because God had taken him. Now before he was taken he was commended as having pleased God. ...
Matthew 28:20 ESV / Teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”
Isaiah 40:31 ESV / But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Psalm 148:1-14 ESV / Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord from the heavens; praise him in the heights! Praise him, all his angels; praise him, all his hosts! Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars! Praise him, you highest heavens, and you waters above the heavens! Let them praise the name of the Lord! For he commanded and they were created. ...
Joshua 1:5 ESV / No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. Just as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you or forsake you.
Philippians 4:19 ESV / And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
Romans 13:1 ESV / Let every person be subject to the governing authorities. For there is no authority except from God, and those that exist have been instituted by God.
Romans 8:29-30 ESV / For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.
Revelation 3:7-8 ESV / “And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: ‘The words of the holy one, the true one, who has the key of David, who opens and no one will shut, who shuts and no one opens. “‘I know your works. Behold, I have set before you an open door, which no one is able to shut. I know that you have but little power, and yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.
John 19:11 ESV / Jesus answered him, “You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above. Therefore he who delivered me over to you has the greater sin.”
Matthew 4:1-12:50 ESV / Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil. And after fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. And the tempter came and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, command these stones to become loaves of bread.” But he answered, “It is written, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” Then the devil took him to the holy city and set him on the pinnacle of the temple ...
Zechariah 4:6 ESV / Then he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of hosts.
Jonah 1:4 ESV / But the Lord hurled a great wind upon the sea, and there was a mighty tempest on the sea, so that the ship threatened to break up.
Amos 3:6 ESV / Is a trumpet blown in a city, and the people are not afraid? Does disaster come to a city, unless the Lord has done it?
Psalm 55:22 ESV / Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.
Psalm 31:14-15 ESV / But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hand; rescue me from the hand of my enemies and from my persecutors!
My boss, Stan, asked me today how I was doing? It seemed like a simple enough question, but not one that I focus on much. I view it much like a foot race and I am a little more than half way through. My focus is one day and one week at a time. Anyway, I wanted to just share it openly with the rest of my faithful "Prayer Warriors".
Treatment is going great with my side-affects staying somewhat controlled. The docs think I am doing better than expected. Last Monday they told me the honeymoon was over and that it starts to get worse from here on out. First of all, I have never thought of it as a honeymoon, but to their point, the side-affects have worsened, but are under control. I learn something new every week that I couldn't have known the week before. As an example, when they say the treatment is cumulative and progressive, they mean the side-affects are cumulative and progressive. They don't mean the treatments are ... the treatments are immediate. In other words, if they radiate today, I get the full impact of it today, but need to go again tomorrow to get another dose. Same with the chemo, if I get it on Monday, it begins working immediately and lasts about five days. Then its time for another bag of chemo.
I did have a bit of a slump mentally following the 3D MRI. While they were incredibly pleased, I had expected more - which I had no reason to expect more, but I did. It bothered me for about a week. Since that time, I am back on top of the world. I am so thankful for this treatment, I have a better understanding of what we are doing to eradicate it and how it works. I am thankful for all those who have reached out to us and I give God praise that he is allowing me to walk this walk in faith. Quite honestly, I don't know how I would do it with out it.
I have seen a lot in just five weeks, but I have learned that disease, such as cancer, does not discriminate. It attacks young, old, male, female, black, red, white, yellow, Christians, non-Christians ... you name it. I have also learned, people deal with it differently. Some are mad, sad, frustrated, ready to quit, etc. I just find myself faithful. I would say there are more here relying on their faith, than not. I believe the patients may have more faith than the doctors, not all, but some. Interestingly, I have learned what the limitations of the doctors are and that no matter what the treatment is, they can only go so far. The rest, as one-doctor told me, is beyond them.
So, I keep following the protocol and doing what I am told to do. My wife is enjoying that, I think. She can't accuse me of not listening. She is very persistent. Hopefully, it will pay off and I won't be fighting the side-affects like those who don't do what they are supposed to do. The only real challenge I have right now is that I have no taste or smell, so I have no desire to eat. I have to eat because my body is consuming calories at an alarming rate. If I sit sedentary and don't do anything, I use about 3,000 calories, which isn't enough to keep me from losing weight. I also have to make sure there are 130-150 proteins per day included in my calories so that I can grow new cells and repair the ones that are getting torn apart. Trust me when I tell you, it is hard to eat 3,000+ calories per day and 150 protein when they all taste like cardboard. As a little aside, before coming to Houston, I decided to put on a few extra pounds since I was going to lose some weight while I am here. I was successful and gained 14 extra pounds, but I have now lost all of it plus four more. My goal is to stay at this level and not lose anymore. I can't or they will stop treatment or put a feeding tube in me. That's not going to happen. Happy cardboard munching away!
One unique side-affect is after I receive chemo on Monday, I have hiccup like spasms for 1-2 days, which makes it somewhat difficult to carry on a conversation. Normally, on Tuesdays, I have them from sun up to sun set, with Wednesday trailing off. I am thankful for all the homemade recipe recommendations on how to cure hiccups. They were creative, but I just can't stand on my head, drink a cup of water and eat a spoonful of peanut butter at the same time - so I took a pill to help stop the spasms. Seems to work better.
Just for fun, here is my latest attempt at a poem / rhyme. I like to write something to motivate me each Monday as I kick off another week.
Resting in His arms!
Rest my child and don't say a word, daddy is revealing a miracle, I heard.
Trust in me and let it be, as many will see and turn to me.
You are free, you are free falling.
As you fall give God your all, He will catch you in His arms as you reach out and call.
Your friend forever,
This verse gives me great comfort and assurance to know that Jesus has already conquered the world (disharmony) and has gone ahead and prepared a place for us. A place of perfect harmony and no illness. A place where all of our loved ones who believed in Jesus, are there now without suffering and fully healed.
NOW THAT MAKES ME HAPPY!
If you don't know Jesus, I pray that you will consider Him and His saving grace. If you are ready, pray this prayer out loud.
"Dear Jesus, I need you. I need you in my life. I am a sinner. I need a Savior. I need a Lord over my life. I need you. I accept you into my heart and ask you to save me. I believe you died on the cross to take away my sins, you overcame death once and for all, you were raised into heaven and you are seated at the right hand of God. I put all of my faith and trust in you. You have been given all power and authority, in Jesus's name." Amen
If you prayed that prayer for the first time or to rededicate your life to Jesus; I am here for you. If you want to talk or you have questions, just call, text or private messenger me.
The time is now! Don't wait another minute.
Love ya, Tom
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LIVING WITH ENTHUSIASM
Let’s talk about enthusiasm today! We all know what it looks like and we all seem to want it, but where is it derived from? Why do some people have it and others don’t? Let’s start with a story about Adrian.
Every Monday I have blood drawn and tested. This week a bubbly young and petite nurse, named Adrian, came to get me. As we were walking down the hall, she was singing and dancing – bopping left and right. I would have done it with her, but as most people know, I have no rhythm. She was so enthusiastic that it was encouraging to me. I complimented her and told her that I loved her spirit. I asked her why she was singing and dancing? She told me that she does it for the patients because the patients have a lot going on and I get just a moment to encourage them. I was upbeat and she asked me why? I said, what do you mean? She said that most patients are down or dreading the day. After all, it was chemo Monday! I said, well, I’m not because Jesus loves me. I have cancer, and that doesn’t change anything about who I am. I asked her if she had ever been through a difficult time where she had to choose how she was going to respond? She said, “Yes, I am doing it right now, I lost my 14-year-old daughter one year ago; she just stopped breathing.” My heart sank. (conjecture: conversation leads me to believe she took her own life). I was stunned at her answer. Every ounce of compassion flowed through me and caused me to stand to hug her - and she gave back a two-arm bone crushing hug. I began to pray aloud over her. We stood for a few seconds in silence. She then briskly said, I need to draw your blood. As she drew my blood, we talked and we cried and we laughed and we cried some more! My heart was destroyed at that moment for this young mother. I asked her how she has worked through it. She said, “Like you, I get to choose how I respond. I choose to live with enthusiasm. I have great joy in knowing my daughter is in heaven and that she is healed.” We hugged again and she sang and danced me to the exit. Please pray for Adrian.
Adrian’s story leads us to the conclusion that “enthusiasm drives purpose”. As an example, every Monday, I start off with a little ditty to remind me of my purpose. The first part is what I do, the remainder is the why.
High ho, high ho, it's off to chemo I go;
God is rad and I'm so glad;
He uses man to complete His plan;
Give God the glory, so man will know His story;
High ho, high ho, high ho.
This little ditty gets me to focus on my treatment, yet it’s my purpose that matters more. While my purpose of being here is to get healed, it is not my primary purpose. Clearly, God has a greater calling than that! I believe, His purpose or calling is to increase my faith and increase the faith of all those who are walking with me on this journey. That includes, my wife, my children, my family, my friends, my co-workers, my prayer warriors, the doctors, the technicians, the people in the waiting area, the valet attendants … and if you are reading this … especially, YOU!
What good would it do to be healed and keep it to myself? None! There are thousands, if not millions, of patients that come through MD Anderson that get healed. It is a premier facility. The stories of how people have been healed here are unending. There is no question that God uses doctors and medicine to heal us. Everyone needs to know that and it is on us to tell them. My dear friend, Tim Pedersen, called me while I was riding back from KC, after spending some time with my daughter, and effectively, he told me that I was going to MD Anderson. He then followed up Monday morning to make sure I put in a referral request. When the word gets out that people are healed at MD Anderson, there is no way to keep it to yourself.
What good is it to have faith and keep it to myself? It would be useless! Matthew 28:18-20 clearly states our purpose. It is commonly referred to as the “Great Commission”. Commission is defined as, an instruction, command, or duty given to a person or group of people. So, who is that? It is every believer. It’s me and it’s you. In fact, these verses leave little doubt as to what we are supposed to do.
Matthew 28:18-20, “Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely, I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”” Matthew 28:16-20 NIV
Jesus declares his authority! If you are like me, my first response might be something like this, “Are you talking to me?” He continues with “therefore”, as if the only logical response is to do what he says. He tells us to “go” and “make disciples”. How do we go? We go to work, we go to the grocery store, we go to school, we go to church, we go to our neighborhood HOA meeting – we go where ever our day takes us. Where we go is not our purpose, it is our opportunity. Your “go” may be exactly where you are right now. The second question is, how do we make disciples? A disciple is much more than a good student or a good learner. A true disciple is a follower. A follower adheres completely to the teachings of another. Discipleship requires a totally committed life. Sacrifice is expected. A disciple is someone who has placed their faith in Jesus. So, back to the question, how do we make disciples? It starts by being one and then our life will become a witness to others. What is your life witnessing today? Worldly things or things of Jesus? We are to be bold in our witness and we are to show those who don’t know Christ the way. The challenge for many is that they believe the sacrifice is just too great – but I would argue the cost is even greater.
Luke 14:33, “Any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple”. Matthew 16:24, “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me”. John 6:66, “From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him”.
The word “enthusiasm” comes from the Greek word en theos. En is the Greek word for the English word “in.” Theos is the Greek word for “God.” So en theos means to be “in God.”
When you get in God, you will be enthusiastic. It’s the kind of enthusiasm that isn’t affected by the economy or the weather or your circumstances. It’s eternal because you are tied to the eternal God. You are in Christ. Rick Warren
Enthusiasm is derived from a relationship with Jesus. It’s that simple! You cannot get it from anywhere else. As you go and make disciples, I want you think about Colossians 3:23-24. Everything we do is an opportunity to live out our purpose. Put God first in all you do and your life will bring glory to Him.
“Whatever you do [whatever your task may be], work from the soul [that is, put in your very best effort], as [something done] for the Lord and not for men, knowing [with all certainty] that it is from the Lord [not from men] that you will receive the inheritance which is your [greatest] reward. It is the Lord Christ whom you [actually] serve.” COLOSSIANS 3:23-24 AMP
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PRAYING FOR OTHERS – ASK, SEEK, AND KNOCK
Prayer Warriors, let’s pray for one another today! Let’s lay it out there, what do you need prayer for today? I like to encourage prayer because it is our opportunity to have a conversation with God about things that matter to us, to others, and most importantly to Him.
I want to get us started with a couple of verses below, but first, you should know that these verses are not just any verses – they are verses one of our “Prayer Warriors” wrote out for us. She chooses to stay anonymous, but the amount of love and care she took needs to be shared. She wrote out 60 handwritten scriptures, then prayed over us with each one, and then placed each one in a separate sealed envelope for us to open each day. We are like little kids at Christmas as we select one each day to see what encouragement God has for us.
Luke 11:9-10 NIV, “I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”
Let me summarize these verses … Jesus is telling us to never, never, never give up in pursuing God. Sometimes we make it too easy to give up. We throw down a couple of halfhearted prayers and conclude that God cannot be found. Then we quit. If anyone knows me, they know it is not in my vernacular to quit. It isn’t over until it’s over … and that’s never. My mode of operation in everything I do is to strive on with resilience. Resilience means the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness. To know God takes faith, focus, and follow-through, and Jesus assures us that we will be rewarded. How is your follow-through? Mine isn’t always the best, but it is certainly getting better as I submit to the Spirit. It causes me to pursue Him, praise Him and give Him thanks. Sometimes, I never get around to sharing my needs and desires. How crazy is that? Taking time with Him draws us into Him and builds our relationship with Him. Keep pursing Him. Never cease.
I would like to suggest and call us to prayer for others. List their name and a summary of their situation; if you have their approval and let us all join in!
LET’S PRAY FOR OTHERS
Meg Muhlinghause & Family
Stephanie and I have known Meg and Greg since they moved here from Midland, Tx. Our daughter, Heather and Janie were one of 10 that ran around together throughout high school and college and still do today. Our son Ryan and Matt were tied at the hip for so many years and are still friends today.
Meg Muhlinghause was diagnosed with a brain lesion which is glioma. Meg had been experiencing numbness on the left inside of her mouth and assumed it was either a sinus infection or TMJ. She had an MRI on December 23rd and the pre-biopsy opinion was that it was a glioma. The biopsy on February 15th confirmed the diagnosis. Meg started radiation treatment on March 8th and chemo on March 9th. She has radiation Monday – Friday and chemo every day for six weeks.
Meg is married to Greg and they have been married for 33 years. They have two children, Janie, last year residency in pediatrics and Matt, engineering student at OU.
Janie stated, “Even though this has been one of the hardest things our family has ever gone through, it has truly been one of the greatest faith building things that we have ever gone through and has brought us even closer to God. We can't imagine going through this without God holding us every step of the way. God has always been a big part of our lives, but it doesn't even compare to how much now. We are all very positive and optimistic about this and every day is truly a treasure, but we have all the confidence in the world that Mom is going to be okay.”
Prayer: Father God, I pray for complete healing over Meg. I pray that her body is generating good cells at a rapid rate and heal her. I pray for the glioma to be eliminated and non-existent. I pray for her endurance while taking treatment. I pray for her dependence on you during her healing. May her spirit be quieted and at peace. I also pray for Greg as a husband and as a father. May he be comforted and know that you are with him as he leads this charge with Meg. May he trust God with Meg’s healing. May he also be there for Janie and Matt to encourage them and build them up. May his thundering laugh be at the center of every get together. May the joy ring out loudly for all to hear as they celebrate their trust and love for You. May they know that they are all loved greatly and that many Prayer Warriors are praying for them. #PrayerWarriorsMatter! Calling all prayer warriors to pray for Meg, Greg, Janie, and Matt.
Post your prayers for others by hitting reply. Please note, you do not need to put your email address or a website, your name and prayer are all that are needed.
What is the difference between a major and minor surgery? It depends, is it you or is it me?
As for me, I try to keep things in perspective as I pray. More often than I willing to admit, I fail here, but I try. I ask myself, how can I worry about something as minuscule as cancer when in comparison: (1) Jesus went to the cross and bore all my sins; (2) there is an opportunity to win over one more lost soul; or (3) when there is an opportunity to be the catalyst to cause a complacent and lukewarm Christian to re-engage and fight the right fight?
Don't misunderstand, I want and expect to be completely healed, but not just for me. I want to be healed for you as well. I want you to be part of the miracle. I want Jesus to be glorified. May everything, I do be for His purpose, so I never lose perspective.
Jesus ends John 16, verse 33 by saying, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” Think about these words. He told us in advance that we would have trouble, so that, in Him we may have peace. He didn’t say He would take it away and He didn’t say that He wouldn’t, just that you will find peace in Him and nowhere else.
He then takes the time to dedicate chapter 17 to praying for himself, but not as a checklist of things He needs, but to point to God our Father and His glory.
John 17:1 NIV After Jesus said this, he looked toward heaven and prayed: “Father, the time has come. Glorify your Son, that your Son may glorify you.” Here He reminds us that our goal is to do what He did. We are to use every life experience to bring glory to God. If only, we could remember to ask ourselves every time, “What would Jesus Do?” and then actually do it. I don’t know about you, but I need a lot of work in the 'remembering department', so that I don’t get caught up fulfilling the wrong purpose.
Why would Jesus warns us in advance? Because this world is a battlefield where the forces under Satan’s power and those under God’s authority are at war. This is a real war and you are the subject being attacked – believe it. Satan wants you to join him in fighting against God and his authority. Satan will do everything and anything to distract you from your purpose. Satan will even get you to focus on your cancer (or whatever your greatest trial is – you know what it is - so name it and let go of it), rather than singing praises and thanking Him for his goodness. Satan wants you and I to steal God’s glory. Jesus prayed for his disciples, including those of us that follow Him today. He prayed that God would keep His believers safe from Satan’s power, setting them apart and making them pure and holy, uniting them through his truth.
Thank you to all our “Prayer Warriors”. God loves to hear our voices in prayer! Thank you for talking to Him on our behalf, in Jesus’s name. Also, thank you for all the ‘amazing acts of kindness’ that so many have blessed us with. It is overwhelming, incredibly humbling and beyond measure. We love all of you very much, but the good news is Jesus loves you even more.
In closing, I want to give a shout-out to my future son-in-law, Jarrod Markley, for inspiring the idea that we all need to “Fight for the King” and for my daughter, Heather O’Keefe, for her inspiration to use Acts 20:24 to develop a t-shirt to remind us all of our purpose, which is to bring glory to Jesus.
Acts 20:24 NLT “I consider my life worth nothing to me, my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task, the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying to the Good News of God’s grace.”
I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU, JOSHUA!
In the movie "The Rookie", Jim Morris is played by Dennis Quaid. Jim Morris was feeling down until he watched a little league game and regained his passion. He showed up to the locker room and said to his teammate, "Do you know what we get to do today Brooks? We get to play baseball." I share this because once Jim Morris regained his passion, all the distractions and all the challenges were behind him.
Today is Monday, March 13th. It is my youngest son Josh's, 17th birthday. While I know my true passion comes from the Lord, I want to dedicate my week of treatment to Josh. I am passionate about him. I will fight for you, Josh! Everyday I will say to myself as I receive treatment, "Do you know what I get to do today, Josh? I get to have treatment today FOR YOU!"
I will be home soon! I love you, Joshua. Happy Birthday! 🎉🎊
OUR PRAYER WARRIORS
Principal: Anything that causes you to take your eyes off the truth, Jesus, is spiritual warfare.
One thing I promised to do was to blog and share my experience so others could walk with me and with the Lord. As you can see, I jumped from day 3 to day 7 and now want to go back and explain what happened to 4,5 & 6.
On the eve of the 4th day, I wrote out a blog I planned to publish the next day. Little did I know that it would be the start of one of the most significant and most powerful spiritual attacks I had ever experienced. The attack was so strong that it kept me up most of the night wrestling with God. I wanted answers. My main question was, “Why?”
I am sure I am not alone in asking why? Surely, each of us at one-point in our lives has asked the question without an explanation. I was sure my question fell on deaf ears. There seemed to be no explanation. I was convinced that my God did not hear me, that he was not going to heal me, and that he was not willing. Satan had gotten into my head.
John 10:10 tells us, “The thief (Satan) comes only to steal and kill and destroy; but I (Jesus) have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”
Thursday morning came and I was scheduled for radiation at 8:55. I was incredibly agitated. I was tired and worn out from wrestling with God all night. Nothing had been resolved. I was convinced that my very presence at MD Anderson proved my lack of faith in God to heal me. How could I put my faith in science when the God I knew could take it away instantaneously?
At 7:20 that morning, I talked with Stephanie. I told her that I was trying to discern God’s will and His method of delivery regarding my healing. I told her that my faith in Jesus, led me to believe I had been healed, not would be healed. I asked her, “Is my faith not enough?” I went on to say, “What if, as much faith as I believe I have, it falls short and is not even as big as a mustard seed?”
Matthew 17:20 tell us, “… Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
I told Stephanie that, it was the "what if" that made me want to leave MD Anderson and go home. In a way, I wanted to test God. Was he faithful or not? If I believed I was healed then why stay, why not just go home now. I told her that my presence was nothing more than a lack of faith and I was not going to radiation. I decided I was packing up our car and heading back to Oklahoma, because my God was the great healer and this was not where I was supposed to be. The underlying question was, “Am I even supposed to use science to extend my life and if so, at what cost? I thought, I would rather die than subject myself to this treatment.
Stephanie immediately prayed over me. I told her not to, that my mind was made up. She prayed anyway. We cried. Her heart was broken. After the prayer, she asked me to go. I told her that I would go today for her, but that we were leaving tomorrow.
I went to radiation at the request of Stephanie. For the first time, I did not ask to listen to contemporary Christian music and I did not pray during the procedure. I was only doing it for her. It was a task and I wanted out of it as fast as possible. I was not by any stretch of the imagination, still, which I had been up to this point. I was done and I was out of here. So, I thought!
My treatment was over by 9:10.
At 9:09, while I was in treatment, I received this message from Pastor Danny Duran.
Today's going to be a great day! Love you, praying for you. May God, give you His strength, His peace, and His joy. Never forget that you are not alone! All faith requires is that first step, you can't have faith without it. #TGBTG
I immediately texted Danny back while walking to the car.
Your timing is God's timing. Last night I wrote a blog to my prayer warriors to publish today on day 4. When I had finished, I wasn't sold out on what I wrote. I found myself trying to persuade others that I "am" healed and yet I was asking them to pray for my healing, no side-affects and no symptoms. I asked them, do they believe? That caused me to ask myself, do I believe? Anyway, I wrestled with God all night. I do believe God can heal me right now. I do believe He can remove my cancer with a single word or touch. Yet, I am concerned that my presence here is a lack of faith. There are millions of people who go through here and I suspect most put their faith and trust in the doctors, the machines and the process. I just can't. So, I wrestle. I went to radiation today. I don't know if I will go tomorrow. I want my witness to be about Jesus's healing hand, not MD Anderson and science.
Danny went on to minister to me for some time. He filled my mind with truths and with scripture. He challenged my thinking and pushed to get me to think about the things of God. Here is some of the narrative and guidance that began to change my thinking.
Danny: Tom I totally understand that. Faith is often hard to discern and follow. Some steps of faith come with a loud yes, while others come with a firm no. I do know that God uses Dr’s and that he says in Proverbs 12:15 The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man listens to advice. I can relate to you on trusting Dr’s and the struggle with doing so. I believed that God would heal Lille completely and he didn’t need a neurosurgeon, but I felt like she was to be part of the story. She (the Dr.) in the beginning didn’t believe in miracles. But when she could only take out 75% of the tumor and went and looked after word; all of it was gone. I then understood what God wanted to do. She (the Dr.) then called Lille her miracle patient. It was one of the best parts of the whole process. The Dr’s might say that the side-affects are this and this, but I am praying that God will show them that and that!! Lille was supposed to have speech therapy and struggle with talking. Well we both now she doesn’t struggle in communicating. Ha-ha. Another sign for all to know that He is God. Instead of God healing Lille without Dr’s and it just being our story, He chose to include them and make it all our stories. He’s good like that.
[About Lillie: Lille is Danny and Emily’s five-year-old daughter who is the miracle child described herein. At 18 months, she was diagnosed with brain cancer. They were only able to remove 75% of the tumor. Three days later after the swelling subsided, they completed another MRI and all the cancer was gone.]
Tom: Then, is my walk, for others? Is it to reach the lost or to reach the weak? Am I to suffer so others can see, so they can be part of the story? I truly believe God can heal me now.
Danny: He can... He may choose too!
Tom: I can't imagine the pain and suffering you and Emily went through while staying faithful to Lille's healing. I can't imagine how Lille; a child must have felt.
Danny: We all suffer, but we get to choose if our suffering will bring glory to Him or just to ourselves.
Tom: I agree.
Danny: He went on to share numerous pointed scriptures to build my faith and point me to the truth to break the stronghold Satan had on me.
Tom: Clearly, I need to go open my Bible. I have allowed the attacks of the evil one to gain a foothold. He has no power over me, in Jesus's name. AMEN and AMEN!
Danny: You are not in this alone, but the enemy will try and make you believe that so that you only listen to his voice. It is his greatest tool, loneliness. We all fall victim to it, myself included, but ultimately, we will Rise Against it! Because we are MORE THEN CONQUERERS!! Love you my friend! Always know that I am here, only a text or phone call away!
Tom: Thanks, Danny! Thanks for your faith and shepherding. Much needed today!
Danny: We are family! Forever connected!
Tom: Thank you, Danny! I am so grateful for you. Thanks for being there in my weakness. God knew I needed a brother this morning. He sent you before you even knew the why.
Danny: Just being obedient my friend! Glad I could help!
Prior to coming to MD Anderson, I went to visit my daughter Heather, who works with Danny Duran. The Duran family has taking her in almost as one of their own. While there we had the opportunity to worship and then went to lunch with the Duran family. Lille and I have always been connected, but on this day, Lille, shared some childlike love and faith with me that still speaks to me today.
How often do we miss the opportunity to have love and have faith like a child? Here a five-year-old was ministering to me simply by being love and by being willing to share it openly and honestly. She related with me, she reassured me and she let me know that my life mattered.
Her demonstration of love and faith reminds me of our Father in Heaven and how much he does the same with us. He knows everything. He knows how we feel. He knows what we need. He never leaves us. He never forsakes us. He comes to us and whispers words that give us life. All we need to be willing to do is listen. To stay in-tune with who He is and what He promises. It is so easy to get distracted by the ‘given over of our minds’ to the empty lies of Satan. All Satan wants to do is ‘steal, kill and destroy’. The easiest place to attack is our mind. Too often, we leave ourselves open to these kinds of attacks by not filling our mind with the truth found in scripture. God’s promises are for all of us.
Over the last three days, a lot has happened. Satan attacked my mind. He got me to think more about me than my Lord and Savior. Thus, I found myself glorifying myself more than glorifying Him. Every word I said or every action I took seemed to magnify me instead of magnifying Him. Please understand, while in the midst of the attack, I was not aware that I was under the shackles of Satan’s attacks. However, by the grace of God, He, in his almighty power, unloaded a legion of angles we call, ‘Our Prayer Warriors’ to fight off Satan’s attacks. Even while I was consumed with myself, He brought forth, hundreds, if not thousands of people to pray on our behalf. They filled our FB, our text, our email, our blog, through my kids posts, through cards, through scriptures in a bottle, and through phone calls and videos. There was no end to the amount of prayer occurring to fight off the spiritual attacks that was destroying me. I am so thankful for all of you. I am so thankful for a faithful God. I am so thankful for Jesus and how He is the center of my life.
I now know, again, that I am to walk this walk with all of you. I believe each of you is part of the story and part of the miracle.
To God be the glory and may His son’s name Jesus, be magnified!
We love all of you beyond measure,
DAY 3 - BE STILL
You have no idea how much this speaks to me. Every morning they snap me in and then tell me to "be still". I immediately go to my happy place and get still before the Lord. It's a challenge to breath comfortably. It's a challenge to not focus on the moment, but when they say "be still", I do.
Today, I prayed the Lord's Prayer and sang the Sanctuary song over and over, until it was over. Talk about still with the Lord. It was over in a blink of an eye. 2 of 33 down.
May the Lord continue to strengthen her and allow her faith to be a witness to others. I am so thankful for her and I am so in love with her. She is truly a woman of God. I pray for the Spirit of God to provide her emotional security, peace, and endurance. Ephesians 5:31-33 reminds us, “… and the two will become one flesh”. When two become one, nothing can affect one without affecting the other. Becoming one with each other frees each of us. It means to be who you are as an individual. You are also called to care for your spouse, as you care for yourself, learning to anticipate his or her needs and helping your spouse to become all they are meant to be. Sacrificial giving should be at the center of your every thought. You should not want anything for yourself, so long as, your spouse has a need of any kind. Each of us should lay down our selfish desires to meet the needs of our spouse.
For me, as a husband, there is nothing I desire to do more than serve my wife by laying down my life for her. Sadly, I have failed more often than I am willing to admit. Humbly, I sit and accept my wife laying down her life for me. Anyone who knows her, knows that she has a servant’s heart so big it consumes her every waking moment. Heck, I think while she is sleeping, she is making a list of who or how she is going to serve when she wakes. She has high expectations and thus seeks to draw the potential out of herself and everyone else she knows. She leads with love, compassion, and conviction. Did I mention she leads with conviction? She never gives up! I am the recipient of her care in my time of need. I am thankful for her … so thankful. God has blessed me with Stephanie and we have become one. I feel everything she feels and she feels everything I feel before we know we feel it.
Here is a quick example of her heart. Everyone knows she is a clean freak. Like, she is so committed to getting the dust and dirt off the baseboards, she is willing to take the shellac off them or she is willing to take the chrome off a sink if that means killing one more un-expectant bacteria. We arrived in Houston on Sunday at 8:00 PM. By the time, we went to bed all the counters, tables, shelves, cabinets, handles, etc. were wiped down with alcohol wipes, all the dishes were washed by hand or placed in the dishwasher, all the appliances where wiped down clean inside and out, etc., etc. Her goal was to have a sterile environment for my care. She made a germ-free haven for me. How great is my wife!
If you are married or thinking about getting married, I want to encourage you to seek to serve your spouse. Learn to give up your rights for your spouse. Don’t hang on to a thread of selfish desire or pride. Don’t wait to be asked to do something, just do it. Ask yourself, if you were ever in need, who would you trust to be there for you in your greatest need? If it is not your spouse, change that now. Build into your relationship until you can say you have become one.
Stephanie, I love you with my whole mind, body, and soul. You are my everything and I give God thanks that He gave me to you and you to me … forever! We are one! Tom
Our “to do” was NOT a secular contract, but a spiritual decision almost 33 years ago, and it will always be. Praise be to God!
DAY 1 - REJOICE
Stephanie and I moved in to our apartment yesterday on a "rainy" Houston day and woke up to more of the same; but I was reminded of these song lyrics again. As I thought about Psalm 118:24 and that "This is the day", I was drawn to the reality that I am not alone. I get to be here with my beautiful wife, Stephanie, and with my Lord. How blessed am I? I get to walk this path with my soulmate and with my Savior. Now that brings great peace.
Make it a great day and be sure to rejoice as today is only here for a moment and you don't want to waste even one second of it. Hug someone, love someone, hold someone, forgive someone ... but in all of that, rejoice, for this is the day, the Lord hath made!
"This is the day, this is the day.
That the Lord has made, that the Lord has made.
We will rejoice, we will rejoice,
And be glad in it, and be glad in it.
This is the day that the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it.
This is the day, this is the day
That the Lord has made."
Today we wrap up our visit to MD Anderson with a consultation with Dr. Fuller. He is our Radiation Oncologist. He will give us his final radiation recommendation. His level of care and concern comforts us greatly. Personally, I like him because he is matter of fact. I like the truth, nothing but the truth. We gain incredible confidence in his words. We will return on March 6th to start treatment.
I was recently reminded of the scripture below by Connie Hallam and how, "The Lord will fight for you; you need only be still." These are great words. To be still means to rest in the Lord and trust that he will deliver you. These words were especially comforting yesterday as they completed a detailed MRI to develop a specific radiation plan. In fact, I had no choice but to be still. They built a mesh mask for me to wear during treatment to keep me still. Boy did it ever, they put the mask over my face and stretched it so tight it caused my scan to poke through the mesh and it left a mesh pattern on my face when it was over an hour later. As I was lying there, completely unable to move my head, Connie's words came to mind. While I was anxious at first, these words comforted me and helped me to be still, not only during the MRI, but also in my spirit. I simply asked the Lord to give me peace and comfort and He did. He delivered me from my own anxiety. I was able to cast my fears on Him and he received them.
As you read the scripture below, please notice the response of Moses and the people of Israel. They sang, they rejoiced, and they exalted His name for the victory He had given them.
My request and prayer for all of my family and friends are to join us and sing, rejoice and exalt His name for His victory. God is so good and the only reasonable response to any storm or challenge is to give Him the glory. He will use it for good. We love you all and pray that your faith is increased. Thanks for walking with us and for your prayers.
PLEASE READ AND PRAY THESE WORDS WITH ME
Exodus 15:1-3 NLT "Then Moses and the people of Israel sang this song to the LORD: “I will sing to the LORD, for he has triumphed gloriously; he has hurled both horse and rider into the sea. The LORD is my strength and my song; he has given me victory. This is my God, and I will praise him— my father’s God, and I will exalt him! The LORD is a warrior; Yahweh is his name!”
RICH MULLINS AND THE RAGAMUFFIN BAND
His words have so much reality and compassion in them, they can't help but draw you in. He finishes with a beautiful song and video about a father who leads his son to walk again. It may cause a tear or two.
Step by Step by Rich Mullins
Don't Focus on the Storm!
Just prior to the versus below, Jesus was healing the sick, speaking truth into their lives and filling the bellies of over five thousand people. Remember, Jesus had crossed the lake to get away to rest and pray. He had not yet done that as he had compassion on the people and their needs.
Matthew 14:22-33 NLT “Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake, while he sent the people home. After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone.
What a good lesson for all of us. Jesus wanted to be alone with the Father in prayer, he wanted time to rest and be refreshed, but his compassion for the people came first. However, as soon as he had gotten the disciples on their way and dismissed all the people, he remembered to worship and pray to the Father. He pleased the Father by serving and tending his people, but he knew the importance of setting time aside to be refreshed in prayer and worship. Are you as guilty as I am? It seems I make excuses all the time. What excuses do you make about serving others, about not worshipping, about not praying or about not reading God's word ~ enough? Are the things of this world really that much more important than a relationship with God, through his son, Jesus? I figure, if Jesus, can stop what he is doing to serve me, I can and should stop what I am doing to serve him. How about you?
Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. About three o’clock in the morning Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!” But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here! ”
While Jesus was still praying, he was aware that his disciples were in a storm. These scriptures give us great hope and assurance that he is always with us and is always aware of what is going on in our lives. Jesus came to the disciples by walking on water. Check that out, he was walking on water in a storm. The disciples were in a boat. The disciples fear must have already been on high alert because, even though they needed help, they were terrified to see him coming to them. Jesus spoke to them at once to calm their fear. He said, "Don't be afraid, take courage ~ I am here!" Imagine Jesus speaking to you in your storm right now. He is saying to you, the same words he spoke to the disciples, "Don't be afraid, take courage ~ I am here!" Oh, how that is music to my soul. How about you? Do you receive great comfort knowing that Jesus already knows your storm? That he is present with you. That you are never alone.
Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.” “Yes, come,” Jesus said. So Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?” When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. Then the disciples worshiped him. “You really are the Son of God!” they exclaimed."
Even though Jesus already spoke to the disciples and assured them that he was here to help them, Peter still asked for confirmation. He said to Jesus, "Lord, if it's really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water." Without hesitation, Jesus said, "Yes, come". So, Peter obeyed and was walking on water until he got distracted by the storm. He allowed his fear to set in and he allowed his own lack of understanding to distract him from an intimate moment with the Lord. He took his eyes off Jesus and immediately began to sink. How often do we do the same. We call on Jesus and then when he doesn't respond immediately or doesn't respond in a away we expect, we get distracted by our own efforts or our own back up plans. Whatever happened to waiting on Jesus? Peter took his eyes off of Jesus and began to sink. Let me re-state that Peter was walking on water. Then he wasn't. Even though Peter took his eyes off of Jesus and began to sink, he still knew he needed Jesus and yelled out to him in the midst of his distraction. Jesus reached out his hand and saved him. Jesus said, "You have so little faith. Why did you doubt me?" How often are we just like Peter? The good news is that Jesus knows us and came for us. He will return to collect his own. Are you one of his own? When they got back into the boat, the wind stopped. After they saw the miracle, they worshipped him. I think we should worship him before we see the miracle. We should have faith that Jesus always keeps his promises. How often are we amazed like the disciples and exclaim, "You really are the Son of God!"
I hope you find these verses encouraging and full of great hope. For me, they speak volumes into my life as I am in a storm. I know I have to keep my eyes on Jesus and I have to believe in his promises, no matter how he chooses to deliver them.
Look into his eyes and accept him into your heart. It will change your life, just like it changed mine. I love you, but Jesus loves you more. Thanks for your prayers. Our Lord and Savior loves to hear our voices.
90 DAY LIST
As you consider what's important in life, I want you to make a 90 day list. What would be on your list?
Time would be on my list. We have nothing but time, until we don't. Then everything is subject to time. Time is more valuable than all the riches in the world.
Friends and family would also be on my list. We don't need them, until we do. Then everything is about those we love. Time or the lack thereof, softens the heart. It breaks down all barriers. Compassion cuts to the depths of our souls. Love prevails.
Your salvation decision is on my list, until it's not. You will either accept Jesus or reject Him. I pray and hope you will consider accepting Him into your life.
While there are so many unknowns; we serve a great God! He loved us so much, He sent His one and only son, Jesus, to heal us from our sin.
Romans 10:9-10, tell us that, “If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord (total surrender),” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified (declared not guilty), and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved (from eternal death)."
If you haven't already accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, won't you consider doing that right now by reading and claiming the words of Romans 10:9-10 for yourself?
As Stephanie and I ramp up for a 90 day journey, I find myself being overwhelmingly grateful for a God who loves us; for all the friends and family with their unstoppable faith, that have and are still praying for my complete healing with no side affects; for all those who have been a listening ear; for all those who have quietly behind the scenes taking actions to help us prepare; and for those who have agreed to fill the gap in our absence.
Love you all!
Making Memories - I received this heart-warming card today from Katherine. Her card caused me to reflect on all the youth that God has put in my life. While I was their to help them, little did they know, that they were my life blood for so many years. Their joy was contagious week after week. I am so thankful that God allowed me to be part of their life then and now. Thank you, Katherine, for your kind words and sharing your memories. I can't wait to see you and Lily. I love you and remember, Jesus loves you even more!
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